I started peeking at women taking showers after showering became something I did alone. When she left me, I talked to women but they never talked back. At job were single female clients. Leaking sinks, erupting toilets. It happened at my lowest: I installed spycams. I watched everyday, as shameful as lustful. Boyfriends soon came into the picture but I still couldn't stop myself from watching. I observed the relationships flourish and on days with strong self-hatred, remembered how I before laughed when people like me were in the news, belly hurting, pointing my finger:
"Look baby, what a creep!"
"Look baby, what a creep!"
