It was big brother Jimmy who talked me into AA. The 12 Steps are difficult. Step Eight says "make a list of all persons we had harmed, and become willing to make amends to them all.”
I’m down to the last two, drinking buddies with me the night I crashed the pickup. Letters to them are in my pocket.
When I asked Jimmy how to make these amends, he said, “You’ll find a way.” I never dreamed I’d wind up waiting at a cemetery, hoping for forgiveness.