When I first started talking to the friendly cashier at the convenience store, I thought, uh oh, you might be showing up. But you didn't.
When she and I got chummier, sharing personal things and being on a first name basis, I thought, now you'll come around. But no.
Then today, when she sadly confided to me that she had left her boyfriend, I thought, well, for sure now, here you'll be. But still nothing.
That's when I realized, dear heart, that part of you had died. No love, not even crushes anymore.
Am I disappointed or relieved? Neither? Both?
When she and I got chummier, sharing personal things and being on a first name basis, I thought, now you'll come around. But no.
Then today, when she sadly confided to me that she had left her boyfriend, I thought, well, for sure now, here you'll be. But still nothing.
That's when I realized, dear heart, that part of you had died. No love, not even crushes anymore.
Am I disappointed or relieved? Neither? Both?
